passion vs sales

stepping out to work isn't an easy feat. we have always been labelled as" you are gifted." "you are special."in schools, friends and even love ones. but when you're out working in the world, reality slaps you on the cheek and tell you" mehhhhhhh" that is how i am feeling right now.

Indeed we are special and gifted in our talents and craftsmanship, I've  never doubted these two statements before because each and everyone of us are unique and special in our ways. there are trials or tests that comes your way and make you even doubt yourself, to see if you can overcome that hurdle. i do at times, doubted my on my own. i'll never allowed these lies to get into me that i'm just another person out there struggling to make ends meet, i believe and truly believe that God has his plans for everyone, if he didn't has for us, he wouldn't died on the cross nor exchanged his purposeful life for our sinful life.

silence

It's quiet at home, absolute silence. it has been like this for days and weeks. There're so many wounds and hurts in me, even tho i chose to forgive whatever my dad has done, there's still a heavy part of me that feel awkward in this whole thing. it seem so easy for my dad to denounce everything. he loses my trust, my respect and i don't even know how to fix it. i really don't.